I am Standing Still

"...So far away, I wish you were here. Before it's too late, this could all disappear. Before the doors close and it comes to an end. With you by my side I will fight and defend, I'll fight and defend"

...

Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On

To be honest, my heart always sing that song... everytime. But my brain reminds me... that I've wasted too much time in this. 

Feeling stupid, why do I always just feel and never think?

Yesterday, I shared story to 2 of my God brothers... I didn't even finish telling them my whole story, and one of them cut my sentence and said... 

"No need to continue the story... I said that you must stop. You've wasted too much time. That's a big obstacle and you couldn't continue this. You're so miserable... Enjoy your life, don't be like this."

And the other one said.. 

"I ever told you, right? I used harsh words and said that you might not trust him... You could talk to him everytime but I asked you must not to focus on that guy only. Open yourself to another guys too. And now you could see that, this is your biggest mistake."

I told them that that wasn't my first time I heard that kind of suggestions. My brain has told me to do that, too. But I had no idea why I always follow my heart, waited for him and believed that there will be a way for us to make this works. 

Yeah... Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. We're so much different in many things, especially in the way of think. Men are logical, women are emotional. Including these my 2 God brothers and... Him also.

Well, let see what will I do. Still stubborn and prior my feeling or work hard to think like men... Logically.