I Deserve More Than A Lazy Aurora Got

How lucky Aurora was, who did just sleeping and be saved by a gentle Prince with his kiss. Whereas I have to beg my brain working hardest to find a way out of the reluctance and fight with the cynical sun that never forget to work at its best. Walk and trust my heart that says the nomadic Prince is still there -- in the place that we first met, while I know how nomads live. How if he's not there and I'll get only "at leasts" when arrive? I deserve more than "at leasts" as lessons, God. I ask more.

Pikachu

Pikachu, why are you totally silent now?

'Pikapi... Pikachu!!!' That how you sounded your name. You used to fill my days with your noisy yet unbeatably cute voice. Noisy, thus you be such an alarm to wake me up. Noisy, thus you be a distraction from everything I was doing. Noisy, thus you drew a smile on my face when my tears were flowing.

I woke up late, so that you'd feel worry about me and force me to get up. I tried to be super busy, so that you'd feel annoyed and try to get my attention. I even cried hard and made liters of tears, so that you'd bring me candies and do silly things in front of my face.

Where the hell have you gone?
Don't give my candies to other girls, hey! Those are mine. Besides, I don't think there are another 23 years-old girls who love eating candies more than myself does... They're busy with their diets and won't eat those sweet candies. You don't know them, I know.

Your jokes aren't funny, they won't laugh. I was just too nice you, wasn't I?

Come and surprised me tonight, Pikachu. I'm missing you a lot. Also, don't forget about my candies!

If Only I Could Have Another Chance

You told me everything when you were about to leave, why?

How could I know that I’ve been that cold to you if you didn’t tell me earlier?

My dear... If only I could have one more chance to show you my feelings, I wouldn’t be as reluctant as myself – I would try to be more than myself could be.

If only I could have another chance,

I would wake up earlier than you some days in a week – so, you would feel as happy as myself when I got you as my beloved alarm in my every morning.

If only I could have another chance,

then I would call you with the sweetest nicknames. What do you like the most? Honey, Sweetie or Baby? Please choose.

If only I could have another chance,

I would go to Thailand and meet you there – I wouldn’t ask you to come here, I wouldn’t protest why it should be Thailand, I wouldn’t hear what my friends said, I wouldn’t afraid to go abroad alone, I wouldn’t ignore my heart.

If only I could have another chance,

I wouldn’t be outside until midnight until my phone’s battery drained and make you wait for my texts or phone-calls  while I know you’re too tired and sleepy.

If only I could have another chance,

I would know that you deserved a sweet lover – who’ll use her 2% remained phone-battery to text you and then steal her friend’s phone just to text you or who’ll call you in the first place when she’s having a very limited internet access.

If only I could have another chance,

I wouldn’t go out and have fun with my friends while there, you’re stressed out in revising your thesis. I should’ve make you feel close to me even when we’re not separated by miles.

If only I could have another chance, I would say yes to every sweet questions you asked me.

If only I could have another chance...

A Gigantic Love

My Dear… If I wanted to, I could come to you when you asked me to.

I have a gigantic love for you and I wanna make sure you deserve it. I wanna see how fate and magic work for us, see how our patience and love survive so that finally we can have more than a love story. We can name it a gigantic love story.

I let the distance becomes longer, in order to see how much you’ll miss me. Risky, yes it is. I know that some other things might happen. You might forget me instead of miss me, meet many girls and the worst possibility is fall in in love with some of them. I don’t let you yet I don’t wanna control you. Remember, I used to tell you that we don’t control each other’s  thing – both mind and heart, our ownselves do. I’m afraid to lose you yet I’m curious about your love for me – so I give you a test, thus I choose to walk on this road rather than fly on fast-track of the air. I deserve your gigantic love, not the ordinary one. Gigantic love or no love, at all.

That’s what I mean, but I don’t need to tell you – even give you hints. Again, possibilities are everywhere. Misunderstanding might get a big chance to come into your mind. You might think that I don’t love you anymore. I know… Moreover, I realize. But, I don’t even want to resist it. I totally let you doing your parts. I want you to learn myself without interfering your mind. I want you to love me without asking you to. Really, I hate asking. Learn about me, because that’s a slice of a round of a gigantic love.

The current situation is… You’re away. You’re thousands mile away, physically – from me. Your love might be away – together with you. I have no idea whether it’s the ending (no-love-at-all ending) or it’s only a part of the episodes.

I don’t wanna guess about what’s really happening, whether ours has met its ending or it still has some more episodes. I have a gigantic love for you, I said. I learn yourself because of my gigantic love and I don’t wanna stop today. This is my part, please don’t interfere. I won’t bother you with my questions while I’m learning, so don’t worry. Direct answers are easy to get, but I’m not interested to them. I hate asking and I’ll find the answer by myself. One day when we meet in person, I’ll show you how I’ve learned about you well. When will we meet? Let the fate and magic work while I’m taking care of my love and patience.

My dear, nothing is futile… I learn you too often. If you know what I mean.

Cheers!